Randomness

It seems like theres so much I could write about... stuff that I just can't put into words. Lately, I've just been so random and writing random quotes from songs and lil bits and peices of poems. It's so weird. Ever since Thursday night... I get random idea's for poems and whatnot. I mean... it's no secret that I like to write. But I've kind of hidden my ability to write poems. My mom has only seen a couple.. almost nothing compared to the whole drawer I have full of the last billion poems that I've written since 6th grade. It's like... every thought I have somehow turns into a poem.. a poem that I just can't finish.

I think that my mind is being very creative right now, because I'm going through such an emotionally unstable phase. I'm on a constant roller coaster.. up.. down.. up up UP... then all the way back down till I hit rock bottom. It's driving me absolutely insane like WHOA snap. (Whoa snap are my 2 new words. It means like.. alot.) There's no telling what my mood will be at any moment. That risks everyone around me either having to put up with my constant laughter, sadness or me just flipping out on them. I try to maintain it and keep it to a minimum, but it's really hard.

Oh, well. But I've really written so many random things over the past two nights. Like:

"The truth is... you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt."- Your So Last Summer by Taking Back Sunday

And I just can't find
The words to describe the love I had for you
Even though its done
I still dream, wish, and hope that you'll come back
Cuz I don't think I can go on much longer
Without you here
Truth is... I miss you
And still love you unconditionally

^ That one I wrote. I bet you can all guess who it was about.. right? It's like... these all just come to me randomly, and usually I wouldn't write them down but I'm afraid that if I DON'T write them... then I'll forget them.

Here's another one I wrote last night :

That song couldn't of come on
At a more worse time
And sometimes the stars
Just refuse to shine

And thats all I have so far, LOL! But I wrote that one, cuz I was looking at an old picture of me and Andrew, while listening to my iPod. (Please note.. whenever I listen to my iPod, I put it in Shuffle mode so it will shuffle all the songs.) And randomly... our song came on. Stickwitu by The Pussycat Dolls. And so.. that poem (That song couldn't of come on at a more worse time..) was inspired by my shock at what had just happened.

Ironic, isn't it?? Jeez.... I just can't escape this kid! He's like... friggin haunting me!!

Someone please save me from my randomness before it takes over my entire mind. Oh wait.. nevermind. It already has.

-Steph