O Jeez...

Well, the other day I posted about how Andrew and I broke up. And since then not much has happened. Everyone has noticed Andrew's sudden note of sadness. My friend Kayla first brought this to my attention. When him and I were still together, he was always happy, laughing, joking and flirting (which sometimes go him in trouble..lol). But now, he's sort of mellow and calm. He just isn't like he was before. I'm trying my hardest to not show that I miss him and I am sorta sad, but it's like trying to get a screaming baby to stop crying. All efforts are useless.

See, I know what your thinking. That I am pathetic and just a lil heartbroken. Well, thing is...your right. I DO realize I am pathetic, and I am perfectly willing to admit that. But how else am I supposed to be? I'm trying my hardest NOT to be sad. I went to the movies with Justin and Ryan (Priscilla couldn't go) on Saturday night..and it cheered me up alot. I can ALWAYS count on my Justin to make me laugh! :D But it's like, my friend Kayla just started going out with Andrew's best friend, Evan. And up until we broke up, the 4 of us would hang out and we were going to make plans for a double date on Valentine's Day. But those plans are down the drain, now. Everyone keeps saying how great of a couple Andrew and I were...and it's not helping at all.

But I am starting to get over him. Slowly, but it's happening. I DO miss him, I'm not going to lie. Andrew was that ONE thing that I could count on to be there, whether I was crying, hyper or bored. And it's weird now, because we never talk on the phone. Not even HALF as much as we used to. Andrew and I were ALWAYS on the phone. It got to the point where Mum didn't even have to ask me who I was talking to cuz it was always the same person. Me and him got really close...and when you go from talking and seeing one person EVERY day, for awhile...you kinda get attached to them.

Jeez..this is kind of going nowhere. I'm just rambeling on, I guess.

Well, there is SOME good news. I've been talkin to me ex (Tyler) alot lately. After all the stuff that happened when we had that terriable break up, I hadn't forgaven him. But today at lunch we had to stay inside due to the nasty weather, and Tyler happened to be sitting at the table RIGHT behind me. So, when I got bored of Kayla and Virgilia's conversation about how Virgilia is stupid, I turned my chair around and started talking to Tyler and Gungus (no, Gungus is NOT his real name. He just goes by that for some reason...). I had a very interesting conversation with them and I caught up on things with Tyler. Then I happened to glance over and who else was giving me the DIRTIEST look, but Tyler's girlfriend, Kendra. Turns out, she got mad at him for " flirting " with me. Well, I could understand where she was coming from because when Andrew and I were together (*tear*), I used to get mad when he would talk to any other girls.

So, tomorrow I plan on apologizing to Kendra for upsetting her. Jeez, I am SUCH a hypocrite! I do the same thing that used to get me WICKED mad.. wow. I don't think I'll be able to put up with this drama any longer...


-Steph