Stress, Stress, Stress...

Oh, I hate these days right before school starts. When your stuck at home with nothing to do than sit around on the computer or watch t.v. I should be doing more productive things like, I dont know...cleaning my room? But I just can't find the motiviation to do anything because I guess I got the "Summer Blues". Usually the last week of summer is like the calm before the storm. Everthing starts to get back really calm, then its all crazy, again. Going to bed earlier, waking up earlier (thanks mom!!) and worrying about how your going to do this year. Its alot of stress. Especially in the situation that I'm in. I've had my brown belt for 2 years now. Every time that I ask Oh Sensei if I can test, he always gives me a reason for why I'm not ready. But I trust his judgement. Most of the time he is right about stuff like this. If he doesn't think your ready..than dang it, your not ready and you gotta wait till next month. This is something that I've had to face month, after month, after month, after month. I'm hoping that FINALLY in September I'll be ready to test.

I'm going into the 8th grade this year. (Even though Auntie Megan doesn't want to face it....I am, lol!) This is my last year before I go up to SHS (Somerville High School.) Am I scared? HECK YES I AM!!! Lol, I mean, we're starting algebra this year..O Joy that should be fun! I've never been the best at math, but this year I really am going to give it my all, instead of just giving up as soon as it gets too hard. And science...wow, dont even get me started on science. I'm pretty good at all my other subjects, but I just dont see why knowing that density is a physical characteristic property is going to come into my life, later on?! (Sorry Auntie Meredith...I just can't stand science!) But I am interested in weather and precipitation and that stuff, so hopefully this year we'll cover that.

Oh God, and my social life. That should be fun this year! Lol!! I'm most likely going to be spending alot of my time at the Karate School training for all our tournaments this year. And that doesn't leave too much time for going to the movies or to the mall with my friends. (If my dad lets me. He's been getting very, very, very, VERY, over-protective lately!) Even though I do have ALOT of friends at the Dojo, and I have a great time training with them, I'll still feel bad about missin out on when my friends from school are all getting together to go see a movie, or sunthin, u kno? O well, its just a sacrafice that I'm going to have to face. I love karate and I wouldn't exchange that experiance for anything in the world.

But I do look forward to this year and to tell you the truth, I can't wait to go back to school. My school is being torn down and rebuilt, so they are relocating the 5th through 8th grades to the empty school right down my street. So, instead of a 25 minute walk, I only have about a 5 minute walk. This means, that I can sleep later and possiably shower in the morning, this year. And I can't wait to see all my friends, I miss them so much.

So until next time...I love you all,
Steph