Overwhelmed.

Right now, I have so much going on it's insane. I thought it was hard to get through middle school, ohh mann. High school is a whole COMPLETELY differant story. Midterms are next week, I've only grazed over my notes. I need to review chapters that I haven't looked at since September, old worksheets I can't remember doing and notes I can barely remember writing. Chapter Review tests are complicated, but 6-7 chapters in one test, that counts for half of my 2nd quarter grade... now that's hard.

You'd think that since we have mid-terms next week, the teachers would be nice to us and not give alot of homework. Not a bit.. they have no mercy at all whatsoever. Just this week, I've typed a four page research paper on starch [biology], taken an 80 question take-home-test [biology], wrote a 2 page portfolio essay[biology], done four 21 question worksheets [2 a night for history], started a 5 paragraph essay [contemporary living] and done numerous other worksheets for Italian, Math and English. It's so hard trying to get all of this done. At least through elementary and middle school, the teachers would meet and organize projects and reports so that not too much was due at once. Now, I just go from class to class hoping that I won't get too much work. I'm trying to make High Honors, again. I'm legit workin my butt off, I can't remember a time in my life when I've ever worked this hard. And to think.. the next FOUR YEARS of my life are going to be like this? Plus the added years of college..? It's...really really hard. I put so much pressure on myself because I want to be somebody.. I don't want to be a slave to my job. I want to love what I do and be happy. But this stress is so horriable. I can barely fall asleep at night because I keep going over my checklist of what's due the next day or in the following week. Thank god I'm grounded for awhile, because the weekends have been extremely useful... even though I stay up till 3 AM getting stuff done.

Whatev... let's just hope I make high honors because I NEED to get out of this house and soon.




pray for me =]