Andrew + Kayla = ??

I haven't had much to write about lately. Not really that much has happened. I started goin out with Gene, but I broke up with him on Monday. It was just too much. He liked me sooooo much and I just felt like I was being suffocated. So, I just ended it. I felt bad, but it was a waste of HIS time because I didn't feel the same way about him, that he felt about me.

Last Saturday, my friend Briana had a party. Andrew was there and he had been flirting with my best friend, Kayla, almost the whole night. I didn't care because Andrew and I are ok again, like I don't hate him as much as I used to. Then on Monday, Kayla told me that she liked Andrew and that he had asked her out. She had said no because she didn't want to be the bad-best-friend that went out with my ex, that I used to love. Alot. I said it was ok and that I really didn't care at all. So, now they're gonna go out... I guess [?]

Problem is, I DO CARE! Alot. I don't want her to be hurt the same way that I was. I don't want him to say the sweet stuff he said to her, to hug her, hold her, kiss her the same way he did with me. I don't want him to make her as happy as he made me and I hope to God that she doesn't make him more happy than he was with me. I'm a terriable friend. I should b happy for her, that shes getting to go out with him. I should be congratulating her and just... yea. Be happy that shes happy even after the whole Evan Break-Up and thats shes moved on so quickly.

But regardless of how much fun they have, or how happy she or he is, I'm STILL gonna be there when the crap hits the fan and shes broken like I was. Hopefully he won't do that to her. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. But it was just soooo much easier to trash talk the girl he was goin out with, when I didn't know her.

Oh well. I just hope he doesn't play her or anything.