The Meaning Of The Word "Boyfriend"

boy·friend(boifrnd)- A favored male companion or sweetheart.

Thats the definition in the American dictionary. And if you think about it, that really is the true meaning. Some girls think that if they have a boyfriend they are automatically forced to be "in love" with him. Most kids my age have NO IDEA what love really is, including me.

I think of a boyfriend as a boy that I can relate to [whether about music, school, thoughts, problems, interests, etc] and someone who can be there for me. Whether it be family problems, school, karate, fights with girls at school or just being stressed out. That one person can be there to comfort me and tell me everything will be alright. It's not that I need someone other than my family or best friends to do that, but it's just an awesome feeling when you know that the person hugging you loves you and really does care about you. That it's possiable that there are people out of your little circle of fiends and family, that are able to love you.

When relationships get to serious too fast, then it's too complicated to maintain. If you get too attached to someone and make them your everything, then when you break up you don't have anything left. Thats something that I've learned. Not to throw my everything into the relationship and to still keep my own life seperate from "him".

Love is a complicated thing. And to be completely honest, it scares me. I don't think that I've ever really experianced the feeling of love that everyone describes, but I've had taste-tests of it. And I think it's sort of like egg salad. It's not great and I would probably choose something else over it, but when I have it, it's like ehh whatever. It's this big huge mumbo-jumbo tornado that everyone seems to get sucked into.. then spit back out of. But, I know that I'm not going to find my husband at the age of 13, and that everything DOES really happen for a reason. If it wasn't meant to be, then oh darn. That sucks! In my future relationships, I'm not going to make him my everything. And I'm not going to try to make me his everything, like I've done so many times before. I'm not going to be his first, last or only one. And I do realize that. But, maybe if I could just get a chance to have an impact on his life, be there for him and have him be here for me, things would be pretty rad.

Just to have someone there at the end of the day, to talk to, to spill your heart to, who will care about you no matter what you say, is a really awesome feeling. Like, just talking and laughing with him, having a good time and pointing to him and saying "Yeah. Thats my boyfriend" is great. I use to love it when people would tell me how cute we were, or how good we were for eachother, its wicked cool. It's a sense of comfort to know that someone is thinking of me as much as I'm thinking of them.

Thats what the word "boyfriend" means to me.
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